| | I feel so hurt and betrayed right now. And I love the fact that the two people who I considered two of my closest friends... the ones who betrayed me... don't even seem to care that they hurt me. In fact, they're sticking to their story that they're completely innocent. They are going to keep lying to my face until I "get over it". I don't even know how to feel about this anymore.
HER: She's my sister... so obviously, I can't just cut her out of my life. But at the same time.. that doesn't just give her absolute forgiveness either. And she probably thinks it does. She probably thinks I'll be mad for a few days, then I'll come home and start telling her secrets, make some mac & cheese for us, then take her out to a movie.. NO. The main reason I'm absolutely sure these two are lying to me is because I could see it in her eyes. HE's a terrific lier... she's not. I've known her for almost 23 years, does she really think I can't read her like a book by now?
HIM: He's gonna turn this entire thing around me.. when I did aboslutely nothing wrong. I'm the victim here, dammit! It's not fair that he expects me to not be mad and actually believe his bullshit lies this time. He thinks that by letting me tour with him and not paying me.. he's doing me a favor. Yeah, I love working for him.. but I do way more for him than I think he realizes. But he's angry, and he's gonna try to make me feel like shit... as usual. He's gonna try to make me feel like I do nothing... and that he doesn't care about me at all. He's very prideful and would rather be right than continue being my friend.
This is a very weird situation I'm in. Do I just make myself get over it and save two friendships, my family, and my career? Or should I be selfish this time and stand up for myself even though I know they're both gonna make me feel even worse by doing so?
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| | Posted 7/5/2008 12:25 PM - 33 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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